Blargh

As expected, yesterday was a complete flop for writing.  Circumstances were against me.  I had to travel for work, which ate up most of the day, besides being draining.  I knew I’d have about an hour between finishing work and getting on the road, during which I could eat dinner, hang out at a mall near the office (with nice chairs!) and wait for the rush hour traffic to abate before I got into it.  I figured, I could haul my laptop along and do some writing then.

And I did–a grand 174 words!  See above regarding “draining.”  Those 174 only got written because I could tell myself, “It’s NaNo–WRITE!”  And it really, really helps knowing that a lot of other people are doing it too.  But nevertheless, it was not a terribly productive day.

Today was better…ish.  Writers out there, do you ever have a day when you know you got a lot done, but you just don’t feel it?  1,774 words today, which puts me just ahead of the goal, but it was a draggy day for writing.  I love those days when the story pulls me forward and I can’t type fast enough to keep up with it.  Off the top of my head, I can think of two specific evenings that were probably my best ever for that kind of writing.  And there are plenty of satisfying days.  And there are plenty of blargh days, where it’s a matter of me dragging the story instead of the other way around.

Oh well.  The good (and bad) thing is that the feeling can turn on a dime.  The words got written, and tomorrow is another day…and I think I got myself right up to the edge of a pivotal scene that I don’t have the energy to handle right now.  Tomorrow.

In the meantime, have an excerpt.

I closed the book I hadn’t been reading anyway.  I had been talking to Mina.  They say, in the terribly practical books that Mina reads, that if you’re ever so unfortunate as to have a very large and potentially hostile predator staring at you in the woods, don’t move.  Movement attracts them.

My book closed and my father’s eyes swept to me, piercing, hard, cold.  It’s not the sort of comment a girl ought to make about her father, but he has creepy eyes.

NaNoWriMo Day Two, and the Kitten of Distraction

Tired tonight.  But total word count is at 4,884!

I really wanted to get ahead tonight, because I’m going to be out tomorrow evening.  I may find myself with some time to write on the fly…and I might not get anything done!  So a good solid cushion is a welcome thing right now.

To get there, though, meant fighting the “Kitten of Distraction,” as I saw it called on the NaNo forums.  Yesterday, I was pretty focused.  Today, for the first hour of writing I kept thinking of all the other things I could do.  Things that were totally relevant–like setting up a chart in Excel to track word count (spent twenty minutes on that) or visiting the NaNo forums (at least fifteen there).  But those aren‘t things that make actual writing progress…

The good thing is, the Kitten of Distraction got distracted itself eventually, and I got into a better rhythm in hour two.  I can already tell that how frequently I check word count is a pretty good barometer of how it’s going.  The slower it’s rising, the more frequently I check.

But tonight I got enough words written to get my dancing princesses in and out of their magical forest, and to go back in time for some background.  Tonight’s excerpt:

We turned back towards the glittering diamond forest.  I glanced over my shoulder as I walked towards the first trees.  I wouldn’t have minded exploring, at least a bit.  As I looked back, I thought I saw movement, just on the edge of the light.  It was a shadow among shadows, possibly a silhouette.  But I blinked, and when I looked again, I couldn’t be sure that I’d seen anything.  Even if I had, I didn’t know if that was a reason to stay, or an even better reason to go.

They might get to meet the silhouette tomorrow.  Or the next day.  But not if I don’t get off the computer tonight…

Blogging, Day 366; NaNoWriMo, Day 1

I started this blog a year ago today, on November 1st, 2010.  Since then, I have met some amazing people, reconnected with other people I lost touch with years ago, expanded my To-Be-Read list to longer than it’s ever been (it’s a good thing–so many exciting reading possibilities!), had great feedback on my writing, and reviewed over 100 books.

This is Post #184.

Thank you to everyone who has made it so much fun.  🙂  I appreciate your reading and I love your comments–making it a conversation, not just me rattling on!  I look forward to discussing more books, sharing more writing, and analyzing more aspects of literature.

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By pure coincidence, this is also Day 1 of my first attempt at NaNoWriMo.  Read the background here.

So far, I’ve had a good start.  I got out of bed early this morning to write 400 words before work.  Then I had to put the novel aside until the early evening, before I was free to get back to it.  I’ve had something of a rhythm for the last year, of writing and stopping whenever I hit a point that feels like I’m done for the day.  I don’t know immediately (or reasonably quickly) what the next sentence is, so if I’ve written a reasonable amount I table it for a while.  I hit that point today at about 1,200 words, so I encountered already the benefit of daily word goals.  Since I was almost 500 words short, I made myself push on, and got into another stretch of story I knew what to do with.

The question is, will I still have that kind of discipline by day 21?  Or whenever.

But for today, all’s well.  Final count before I hit a second wall was 1,996.  Only 48,004 words to go!

I am fluctuating between excitement about my characters, and a fear that I don’t actually have enough plot.  Considering that, of my last four projects, three have stretched longer than expected and only one turned out plotless (and was subsequently abandoned), I may just be paranoid.  But I guess I’ll find out!

A couple of excerpts, before I give up typing for the night…

Opening paragraph:

There are twelve of us, but everyone thinks of us as one.  We encourage it.  Our anonymity is our strength, and our curse.

And a slight introduction to Lyra, my narrator:

I tell stories.  I read them, I imagine them, I live them and breathe them and can no more imagine my life without them than I can imagine a life without eating.  I try to imagine a life without my sisters, but it’s a bit like imagining life without the sky.  How can you imagine away something that has always been there?

Good luck to everyone else starting a novel today!

Exploring the Origins of Dracula

What could be a better review for Halloween than the ancestor to so much horror fiction–Bram Stoker’s Dracula.  I’d been meaning to read Dracula for ages–it was one of those classics I thought I ought to know about.

I kept not getting to it for a couple of reasons.  Mostly, I thought it might be disturbing.  It is horror, after all, and being old doesn’t prove anything–Poe can be pretty disturbing.  Or, I thought it could be very literary and difficult to read.  Fortunately, both fears proved unfounded.

To address the second one first, Dracula isn’t a difficult read, though it is slow at times.  Some books transition into the current day just fine; with others, it’s immediately obvious that they were written in the 1800s.  It’s a stylistic thing, but it’s not difficult, just dry sometimes.

As to being disturbing, it really wasn’t.  But, to give you fair warning, I do most of my reading during the day.  I’m convinced that we have some kind of deep-seated primordial instinct that makes everything seem much creepier when it’s dark out.  I have two friends who read this at night–one said it was fine, the other said it was terrifying (and she’s usually good with horror) so take from that what you will.  For me, it certainly had some dark moments and images, but it didn’t particularly give me chills and thrills.  Honestly, nothing had the tickle-your-spine creepiness of Bela Lugosi descending the stairs and purring, “I am…Drrrracula.”

Speaking of Mr. Lugosi, he’s always been my image of Count Dracula.  So I was taken aback to find Dracula described as a white-haired old man with a drooping mustache and hairy palms.   I was actually fascinated by how consistently Dracula is described as ugly and repulsive.  And this is the origin of the culture’s vampire obsession?  (But then, I find the Phantom of the Opera a plausible romantic lead, and that’s equally strange if you only read Gaston Leroux.)

The leap from Bram Stoker to Stephenie Meyer is mind-boggling.  Dracula to Twilight is a long trip.  I couldn’t imagine how we got from Stoker’s ugly, foul-smelling demon spawn, all the way to Meyer’s breathtakingly gorgeous (and sparkly!) Edward Cullen.  I talked to a friend who’s more interested in vampire literature than I am, and she tells me that the bridge is Anne Rice.  Apparently she’s the one who made the vampires seductive.  Stoker’s Dracula is not in the least seductive–the female vampires are a bit, and the Count has a certain mesmerizing quality, but it’s much more hypnotic than attractive.  110 years has clearly made a big difference in the perception of vampires.

Speaking of the gulf between portrayals, there are few characters less like Hugh Jackman than Stoker’s Van Helsing.  The Hugh Jackman movie is a fun romp about a man fighting monsters, but the original character is a sweet old man.  He wields a stake when he needs to, but he’s much more an intellectual than a fighter.

To circle back to Stoker vs. Meyer, another interesting question is whether the vampires are damned.  In Stoker, there’s no doubt about it.  He doesn’t allude or hint.  He just flat-out says that God has forsaken any and all vampires–even if you didn’t want to become one.  You get bitten a few times, drink some vampire blood (even force-fed), and you’re condemned.  It bothers me from a narrative and especially a spiritual perspective  that people could lose their souls unwillingly.  I actually have to give a nod to Meyer here for making it more complicated–the after-life of vampires is no more certain than for anyone else, and the mere fact of being a vampire doesn’t mean someone is evil.

On the other hand, when it comes to strong female characters, I’m giving that one to Stoker.  He has a couple of major female characters.  Lucy is endlessly described as sweet and good and beautiful, and not much else.  Mina, however, has got it all over Bella.  She’s right in there with the men devising their plans for fighting Dracula, and I think she has as much nerve and brains as any of them.  She ends up constrained by her gender a few times, but the men clearly hold her in immense respect, and when they do occasionally try to push her out of something (for her own protection, of course) I get the sense that she thinks she’s equally capable–and that she’s right!  Not bad, for 1897.

“Not bad” is probably a fair estimate of the entire book.  I didn’t love it, but it was definitely interesting for its place in literary history.  Taken simply as itself, it had some good characters, a good premise, it was kind of slow and I’m not crazy about the writing style.  All in all though, it was pretty good–or not bad!

NaNoWriMo

As I’m sure you know, we’re coming up on November.  And as many in the writing and blogging community will know, that means National Novel Writers Month–NaNoWriMo in the shorthand, or NaNo if you want to make it really quick.

The goal of NaNo is to write a novel in a month–50,000 words, or about 1,600 a day.  People come together, in person or over the internet, and support each other in their goal.  It is, by all accounts, a fun way to connect with other writers, and to hopefully produce some writing–which everyone expects will require vast amounts of revision.  But the point isn’t so much to write a good novel–just to get something written, and you can always revise it later.

I’ve been hearing about NaNo for years, but I’ve never actually participated.  November never seemed like a good month for a vast amount of writing.  In school, November is just when everything’s gearing up with major papers and final exams.  Last November, I was busy starting a blog.  🙂

But I’ve decided that this is the year–I’m finally going to give NaNo a try.  I have a full-time job and plenty of social activities, not to mention a blog, but I know lots of people with crazier schedules than mine make an attempt on NaNo!

I already write most days, but I tend to fit in just a little time at the end of the day, and I’d like to write more.  I figure NaNo will force me to–and hopefully I can make some habits I can keep following after November.  I’m finishing up the first draft of the novel I’ve been working on for about a year and a half, so the timing is perfect to launch off into something else.

I’ve had an idea percolating for a while that I want to explore.  As I think regular readers all know very well 🙂 I love fairy tale retellings.  Lately, I’ve been drawn to “The Twelve Dancing Princesses.”  After reading a lot of retellings, I re-read the original in Grimm’s (“The Shoes that Were Danced to Pieces.”)  There was plenty there that had been in most of the retellings, but there was one line that suddenly jumped at me:

“Each Prince danced with the girl he loved.”

I found myself re-examining the entire story.  In every retelling I’ve been able to find, the Princes are evil demons, the Princesses are forced to go dancing, and the King is a well-meaning man who does his best to help his daughters.

But that’s not in Grimm.  In Grimm, the Princes never do anything evil, the Princesses seem perfectly willing (even eager) to go dancing, and the King is locking up his daughters and chopping off champions’ heads.

Which leads me to ask–what if the villain of the story is not who everyone has been making it out to be?  What if everyone’s motivations, and everyone’s desires, are entirely different than what we’ve come to expect them to be?

So that’s what I’ll spend November answering!

Obviously I plan to focus on novel writing for the month, which will mean less blog-writing of the usual kind.  I expect there to still be a few book reviews and a few other things like Favorites Friday posts–and if the novel-writing goes well, I’ll share excerpts!  But don’t be surprised if the usual posts are less frequent for a few weeks.  I still plan to post often though–so that I can let you know how the novel-writing goes, and keep myself accountable!

If you’re participating in NaNo too, I’d love to hear how it goes for you; you can find me over on the NaNo website.  My username is cherylmahoney.

I have another horror novel review for Halloween, and then the novel-writing starts next Tuesday–wish me luck!